while in the middle of cooking dinner last night (and i might add, a very delicious one) Jonny recieved a call from his sargeant. Usually, this isnt anything to be alarmed about, an army man's day of work does not stop once he leaves the base. However, once Jonny looked up at me from the floor (we have a tiny love seat that i hog 24/7, our couch hasnt came yet) the look he gave me said it all. Its funny how a person can go from being extremely relaxed and happy, to sweating/having heart palpitations/want to throw up/hysterically crying. In that moment I have never been so overwhelmed and angry all at once. I would never wish this feeling among anyone. Let me clarify, I am not upset at the fact that he is going to Afghanistan. When we first starting dating back in the day, our relationship has never been a lie. Jonny has always been honest that "Yes, if we wanted to be together, I would have to accept the fact that he would be getting deployed"..I had plenty of chances to opt out. I was so upset that I no longer had 18 precious days, but more like 60 hours. Not having any control over a situation is the most TERRIBLE thing. The reason he is getting deployed is the sole fact that they want to send 90 guys over this friday, and they only have about 70 people to fill the plane right now. They are so desperate to scrounge up people, that they are sending the most unprepared soldiers out to Afghanny Land. This war needs to stop, and it needs to stop now. Jonny told me this is the final push in Afghanistan before the troops start to "really" withdraw. But realistically this wont happen for another 2-3 years. Which means more and more lives are going to be in danger. It is sickening how people hardly even mention or talk about the war anymore in conversation. It so disheartening because we have so many of our own, slaving every single day while most go on with their lives and dont have a care in the world. Let this be a reminder to say a prayer, 15 seconds out of your day, and reflect on the troops who are risking their lives for your freedom.
SO our couch we finally ordered is coming on Friday. I dont think ive ever been so happy/sad for a piece of furniture to come. We were so excited to buy our first real home item together that symbolized some of the happiest times we've had in our relationship. It depressing that i will be watching probably "a walk to remember" or "the notebook" on it alone Friday night clutching a bottle of wine. or 5 bottles. Its sad because when Jonny was doing his will, he selected that i recieve the couch. the only asset he officially owns. ugh, so depressing i cant even bear to think about it.
The best news of the week is that we decided to do Alie's bachlorette party in AC (Atlantic City) for people wo arent good at determining acronyms. AND I CANT FRIGGEN WAIT. i also cant wait for her engagement party in May. Being down here in the south is lonely and I need some human interaction asap before i go crazy. This event will not only be amazing, but will help take my mind off everything.
Also, thank you to all my blog readers/friends/family/lesbo girlfriends/best friends/wifeys whoever you are who have been texting/facetiming/calling me to lend advice, support etc. it means more than you will ever know and if i havent been responding or calling you back, i promise I will this weekend. A lot has occured in the past 20 hours and its been a lot to process. I am not good at dealing with situations like this/explaining my feelings. Just know that it means SO MUCH and i couldnt get through a time like this without any of you. I loom forward to seeing everyone when I am at home working this summer. :)
I will update my blog this weekend with a life update and will post Jonnys address on many forms of social media when he arrives in Afgahnistan. I hope everyone will write him letters, send him a note, a package, anything to keep his spirit up. Seriously a quick "thank you for your service, be safe" can make any soldier stay positive and help them get through the day.
p.s. if i am a bitch at all in the next 6-8 months, 1. i apologize and 2. i will be sexually frustrated and cranky as a result :)
everyone have a happy hump day and a good rest of your week!
support our troops! YAY USA.
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